Well... now I do feel like a goth cliché, the "I'm dead", "no one cares about me", "I'm alone" and such feelings floods my mind... I know I'm certainly depressed, I'm kind of disappointed about the result of the decisions I made, can't see the way to become free in the next few years... and certainly I'm in the path of becoming lonelier, but I want to be alone, don't I? I guess I have never been depressed before, how do you get over it? I don't fuking care now, as anything cares now, just want to be alone...